Confusion

I don't get it. There's a communication error somewhere and it's irritating and confusing. Is the rehab place not being told something? Am I not being told something? What's up with this?

I go to rehab class just to get kicked out and stuck in the hospital. I did GREAT on my tests so I got to go home. I was warned that I have a rapid heartrate but there's nothing wrong with my heart pumping. Arteries clear, stent working. Yay me. I go back to the cardiologist. He tells me again that there's NOTHING WRONG with the pumping part of my heart and I'm in gorgeous shape. I may be able to start jogging soon he says. Then he puts me in a heart monitor for a month and puts me back in rehab. Apparently whatever may be wrong requires around the clock monitoring. Worrisome. I head back to rehab. I'm hooked up to another monitor and while wearing two at a time I'm pulled off my rower for a rapid heartrate. Again. I bargain my way out of going back to the hospital. It's not happening! They inform me I'm likely never running again and it may be time to "accept my limitations."

I'm sorry what? Which is it?!? Am I healthy or am I not? Will I run or won't I? If the cardiologist says yes, let's get busy. If it's no, I need to start my life and work towards different goals. They'll still be big, I'll just be more careful. I know without a doubt that my heart is healthy. I also know that my guys are worried enough to have me wear a heart monitor. I'm in the middle, the bug, who at this point is just praying I don't have to meet the electrical specialist. Please, please don't let me have to go see that guy.

This is a confusing month. I can handle either answer. It's NO answer that's driving me a little nuts. This marks my 7th month healing. It's time to stop being a heart and start being a person. Don't you think it's time to start living again?